Cut

Every cut you make

Make it long and make it deep

The deeper it gets

The closer I get

To bleeding you out

Inside

It breathes inside me

Writhes around and beats inside me

Makes me move and pleads inside me

It brings me to my knees 

And has me begging, please

Rises and falls inside me

Races through the blood inside me

It burns me up and keeps me high

Never gonna let this fever die

Crushed

I lost my heart in California

Lost my mind to songs and booze

Swept away by a giant red balloon 

Filled with promises and dreams

Dove in

Heart first

As if there was no bottom

Crushed my bones on his jagged tongue

Shred me 

Bled me

Left me living lifeless

365 and something days behind me

And I'm still coming back to life

So Long Ago

You said you loved me 

So long ago

Plans and Promises were made

Memories formed that hang in the air

It seemed like everything 

Was as it should be 

But that was

So long ago

I knew early 

That we could never be

You had no idea 

The person I was meant to be

You wanted to keep me in a little box

Tightly wrapped

And nicely kept

All the things I could never be

You had a mold in mind 

That I could never fit

A straight line

That I curved when tried to fit

It was never me I was with you

But only the thing you wished I was

I doubt you'd know me now

If you met me today

You hardly knew me then

So long ago

Everything

Funny how things change

So slowly

You hardly notice

The things once so important

Seem so insignificant now

Things so dear

That you gave hardly a thought before

Fears so great today

That never crossed my mind years ago

Struggling to define my life

What I thought would be so simple

When I was young

I hardly recognize the change sometimes

Lines are forming around my eyes

Spelling time

As only life can

I feel a weight

That only age can bring

Beckoning

Pleading 

Demanding

Everything

All the things I wanted for myself

For this life

Wishes echo in my bones

Days go so fast

I can't dig my heels in deep enough

To slow it down

Let go

Lift my feet

And let life sweep me away

Something I've never done so well

But a timer is set

Somewhere in the distance

It ticks down

A time none of us know

So let go

And take it

Beckon

Plead 

Demand

Everything